Am I being paranoid?

Or did my honesty about my situation - and my color - just make someone on AirBnB totally delete their post completely?

The person literally said she wasn’t ready yet and didn’t think she’d get any interest and that she’d take it down.

Like, if it really wasn't available they could have just changed the status, right?

Story of my life. Pretty much the story with every one of the thousands of houses/spots I’ve applied for this year.

So many "sorry"s.

I just want to cry.

I don't know why people hate me so much. And I wish they'd have Trump's bravery enough to be open about it rather than trying to be "polite" about it.

People, white people especially, your politeness is killing me. It's wearing away any strength I have left. See, I can fight hate. I can fight outright hostility.

But there is no way to fight politeness. This is the insidiousness of #abuseculture. Because it's the nice ones that end up doing the most damage.

Integrated Non-Monogamy, Metanoiac Alethiology, aro love terms, cuil fiction, & more; Speaker; Sensitivity Editor Cuil Press. https://the-metanoiac-portal.mn.co

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